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The sad step, stress and self sabotage. 

28 Nov

So the last couple of weeks have probably been the most stressful I’ve experienced in a long time. I was preparing a job application and then preparing for the interview. Inbetween that I was deal with people commenting on my ability to do my job and how the new job should not be mine. At first you can tell yourself to ignore it but after a while it starts to get into your head. And how did I cope with it? I ate and boy did I eat loads.

There was literally nothing I wouldn’t eat. We have a snack drawer in work and it is full of wonderful and delightful things. I had my almonds and fruit but did I want them? No. while writing my application I would eat biscuit after biscuit. I would get my husband to call into the shops to get me a treat. After the application was submitted comments about my ability to fulfil the position intensified. So what did i do? I ate.

I knew myself I was doing bad things to my body. I was bloated, cranky, tired and weak. After 4 weeks i finally had the interview and my stress levels were at an all time high. After the interview my adrenaline went through the roof. All I could do was go home and sleep. On Wednesdays I have PT sessions and I remember how crap I felt I had no strength and all I wanted to do was throw up. The worst part was the self hate I had for myself. Why did I eat all the food, why couldn’t I control my emotions better? I spoke to my trainer and she said just draw a line under it and move on. At this point I had acknowledged that I was doing wrong and to just get back into my routine. 

The biggest thing that affected me during this time was the sad step aka the scales. I know to stay away from the scales but my weight loss in the back of my mind is very much numbers based. Even though I know that the numbers haven’t changed but yet I’ve dropped 2 clothes  sizes I still can’t get it into my head to stay away from the scales. The more I ate the more time I spent standing on the scales feeling sorry for myself. 

But now this is a learning curve and I’ll be able to use my experience from this going forward. And now to go and hide the scales.


You want how much for it??

1 Mar

So it’s official Mark signed all his paperwork and starts the job on Monday. We’re delighted. It’ll be weird being separated having spent the last 6 months literally living in each others pockets.
So once the paper work was signed we were against the clock to find a car. Where we are living at the moment is very close to marks work but no transport goes there so car was our only option. We went from car lot to car lot looking for something cheap and reliable. Car prices are so different out here. Back home you’d pick up a cheap run around no problem out here not so cheap and not so little. The prices for older cars are insane. One lot we went to looked like a total pikey set up and they looked completely dodgy. So we ran outta there pronto.
While on the buses we constantly checked gumtree, continually refreshing the feed.
Bingo, Mark spotted a car and we wanted it. So we made our way across Brisbane to a less pikey looking site. And there was our Camry. Compared to the other cars we’ve driven this thing was like a tank, an automatic tank at that. When we took it on the test drive I could see Mark looking for the clutch. No clutch there buddy keep your foot on the floor.
So we decided we’d take it. Can you believe for a 1996 car it cost us $2250 we made sure to get a warranty with that. I can’t believe when I got my first car a 99 fiesta it only cost me €900.
So the car is home and Mark is ready for his first day. The last week has been completely life changing but I have to admit I am totally loving it 🙂