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Sometimes things just don’t go to plan. 

27 Aug

It was with a heavy heart that I decided to pull out of my first 10k race. And to say I was disappointed would be an understatement. This was my first 10k and I wanted to do this for myself. 

Lets go back to last Sunday. Hubby was competing in true grit and I gave into that little voice in my head that said I wouldn’t be fit enough for the event and didn’t register. Truth is deep down I know I would have been well able for it but I doubted myself and this is something I have to work on. So I stood on the side lines and supported him. Throughout the day my throat got progressively worse and at one point I thought I was going to pass out. I wanted to curl up and die. By the time I got home I was on fire. I was breaking out in a fever and my skin was hot to touch. I went to bed that night and Monday morning the virus was in full swing. I went to the doctors and he confirmed that I had a viral and a chest infection. I asked him about the 10k and he said just listen to your body. 


So I listened and I didn’t like what I was hearing. My cough got worse and I became breathless. In mind I just kept saying 6 days until race day, you’ll be fine. And that carried on all week. By Friday I knew I couldn’t run it so I thought about walking it. I didn’t want to walk but because I felt like I was letting myself down. But I figured walking was better then nothing. Friday morning I walked to the bus which is only about 10 minutes from my house. It killed me. I couldn’t catch my breath and I needed to sit down. What chance did I have of walking 10k. Even as I sit here tonight, the night before race night a part of me is like you’ll be fine to do it tomorrow. I won’t be – I still can’t breath. 


So what do I do now? I move on. I get myself healthy and strong and I move on. I have signed up to Miss Muddy in September and a few of us from work are going to train together on a Tuesday evening. It’s shitty when things like this happen but it’s a great lesson in learning how to deal with disappointment. In the wise words of my dad, what is for you won’t go by you. Xo

30 days clean eating -May 1st

25 Apr

So I think I can honestly say in the last year my eating has improved dramatically. And as a result of better eating and exercise I’m fitter and my skin has improved massively. But what’s my number one problem? I eat my feelings. If I’m board I’ll eat, if I’m sad I’ll eat, if I’m happy I’ll eat and the absolute worst is if I’m tired I eat absolute shite, nothing tastes better then food you have prepared but when you’re loosing the will to live (ok slightly dramatic) and you can pay someone to cook and deliver food to you then I know what my choice is. The last couple of months have probably been the worst. And it’s such a vicious cycle. I eat because I’m cranky and then I have sugar withdrawal get cranky and eat more food. 


The biggest change for me was that sugar film. Such an eye opener. Really gave me the kick up the bum I need. Food I thought was good was just pure sugar, my low fat yoghurt, orange juice and cereal. I’ll be honest I was horrified. But like everything else I watch the film in June and everything I learnt just kind of slipped into the back of my mind. Thankfully they have released a new book which has given me the motivation to go again and clean eat. 


Preparation is 100% the key. I picked up these handy weekly guides in Kmart and I have my meals planned. The biggest issue I had was coming in from work, not knowing what I wanted to eat so I either didn’t eat (binge ate later) or had take out. This helps to keep me on track and I have a plan to stick to.


My husband has promised to keep me motivated. This week I have started cutting down and I can feel the cravings and the little voice in my head telling me to just have one piece it won’t hurt. Last time I did this i didn’t  cut down first I just cut out. This time to prevent the sever headaches and moodiness I’ll cut down and then out. April 30th I’ll do all my measurements and photos and update as I go along.

I have my first offical 5k on Sunday. Shin splints are causing issues so we’ll see how i go!

Here’s to clean eating and sugar free 🍸